Well, I am about three months in to having two kids. I have a lot of thoughts on the topic so I wanted to write them all here. First and foremost, I feel like to luckiest person in the world that these two babies are mine. After losing our first baby, I wasn’t sure that we would even be able to get pregnant again…let alone twice so I feel very thankful. I also feel very whole. I don’t know how to explain it but the minute I held Scarlett in my arms I just felt this overwhelming feeling of being complete. I thought to myself, “This is it. This is your family…your sweet family of four and they are all you need.” Which is crazy to me because I always thought we would have at least three kids. And maybe we still will…but right now I feel so content with our two.
But two kids is no cake walk. I thought I was such a good Mom until I had two kids. I used to be so patient with Grey…I used to set aside time to teach him things…I used to set up fun activities for us to do together…and then I had a baby. Of course we still do a lot of those things that we used to but not as often. And I lose my cool with him more than I’d care to admit. We have our good days and our bad days.
Two kids also means so. much. laundry. It’s amazing how much more laundry a tiny little person can add. I was just getting used to the amount of laundry for three people and now it feels like it has quadrupled! It probably doesn’t help that Scarlett spits up a ton but jeez…we have laundry piles for days around here!
Having two kids means no free time. If I do get twenty minutes where they are both sleeping it’s always a decision of, “do I shower?“, “do I eat?“, “do I clean the house?“, “do I fold the laundry?“, or “do I sit on the couch and do nothing?“. Something is always getting left behind. I might have my hair and makeup done one day but my house will be a disaster. Or maybe my house will be clean but we stay in our pajamas all day. Or maybe we leave the house for a fun activity but I don’t cook dinner. It’s always something. And for a while this really bothered me. I like to get ready every day, I like to keep a clean house, I like to cook all of our meals…but I realized this wasn’t possible. The only way I could realistically do all of that is if I took time away from my kids. And that is definitely not something I want to do so I just had to accept that for this stage of my life, something will always be taking a back seat. And that’s okay.
But two kids also means double the fun. Double the “I love yous”, double the hugs and kisses, double the smiles and giggles. We are getting to the point now with Scarlett where we can make her laugh…and Grey is loving it! He can also hold her for longer now that she is more steady…even though she is almost half his size! It is so much fun seeing him interact with her. The other day we were driving to my Mom’s house and Scar was crying a little bit so Grey said, “It’s okay Scarlett, we are going to Gigi’s house!” It was so sweet to hear him tell his little sister that it was okay. Those are the moments that I love.
Adding another baby into the mix definitely has it’s challenges. But oh how I love my two babies. They are my world and I wouldn’t change a thing.