Ah, here I am.
20 months later and I’ve still got a baby (er, toddler) on the boob.
And I love it.
But I also…don’t love it sometimes.
This post is really just me talking out my situation…but if you have any advice or experience with this, I would gladly welcome it!
Why do I kind of want to wean him? Well, for starters I would hope we would both get some better sleep. Yes, we’ve night weaned…but there are still some wake ups in the night asking for “more”. I also want to have another baby at some point and would like to be done nursing before I get pregnant. And, he is at the point where he will just walk up and lift up my shirt…and that gets kind of embarrassing in certain situations.
Why don’t I want to wean him? I just don’t quite feel ready. Will I ever? I feel like if I wean him I will lose a really special part of our bond. It’s our time together…no one else can have that time and I’m not sure that I’m ready for it to be over. I love the comfort that it brings him and to be honest, it comforts me as well. I really want him to self wean…but I also don’t see an end in sight if I go that route! (ha!) I haven’t had to give him any other form of milk…and I kind of don’t want to. He still gets good nutrients from my breast milk and I don’t want to take that away from him. The World Health Organization recommends nursing for two years or more…and for good reason, right?
I keep saying I will be done when he turns two…but I also said that when he turned one. I keep saying I will start setting limits…but it’s so hard unless we are out of the house all day. (Which we never are). I keep telling myself he will be fine without it…but then I can’t bring myself to stop.
Mommas…what has your experience been? Did you slowly wean? Stop cold turkey? Stop when you got pregnant with the next? I need your advice!!!
But really…how do I say no to this face?!