So maybe it’s been a little over a month…
5 weeks and 3 days to be exact.
However I thought I’d still share my one month postpartum update.
The First Few Days…
I’m going to be completely honest here…the first few days after I gave birth were pretty rough. I am so glad my Mom was here because she helped me so much! It’s just a crazy transition and I want to write about it now because I’m already starting to forget how hard it was…and I think it’s important to talk about in case anyone else is going through the same thing. First of all, I experienced a huge hormone dump once we got home. Of course you have this precious newborn that you love so much but there are also a lot of struggles like breastfeeding, anxiety, sleep deprivation, and not to mention you just gave birth…so chances are you are a little sore. I had a few emotional breakdowns in those early days and honestly didn’t feel like I was ever going to be able to leave my house again. We got home on Friday and had a Doctor’s appointment on Monday and I thought for sure that I wasn’t going to make it. Monday rolled around though and I made it…I even put on a little makeup!
Another thing that I wasn’t expecting was the anxiety! I was literally afraid to go to sleep because I didn’t want anything to happen to Grey during the night. I remember that 8PM would roll around and I would start feeling so much anxiety because I knew we would all be going to bed soon. You hear so much about SIDS so I was up every 5 minutes making sure he was breathing. I thought for sure that this was never going to end and that I would never sleep again but don’t worry, eventually you just get so tired that you have to sleep! (Watch out though because that first time you fall into a deep sleep, you will most likely wake up in a panic!!) I am happy to report that 5 weeks and 3 days later the anxiety is gone and I am much more relaxed during the night!
I would also get anxious about every little change in Grey. He is breathing different. His poop is a different color. His hands are clammy…is that normal? I think he’s congested. Is he supposed to be eating this often? Should he be sleeping more? I mean every little thing freaked me out and I was googling something different every second of the day. I’m sure that I will continue to worry about him for his entire life…but my worries have calmed down a little bit now that we are a month in.
This is definitely a topic that I want to talk about because I went into it totally blind and I really wish I hadn’t. If you have the opportunity to take a breastfeeding class, do it! Or read a book..or google it…or something! Don’t just expect it to happen naturally because chances are it won’t. When I fed Grey for the first few days I had absolutely no idea what I was doing…but he was sucking and it seemed to be working. On about day 3 my nipples were killing me! My sister explained it so perfectly…”It’s like he’s sucking shards of glass through your nipples.” Ouch, right? I started googling my nipple pain because if this was normal then I was going to completely give up. I read a lot of different articles that said it was not normal and breastfeeding shouldn’t be painful so I knew something wasn’t right. My sister recommended seeing a lactation consultant and I am so glad I did. The consultant watched Grey eat and realized that his latch was completely wrong which was causing so much nipple pain. In a matter of 5 minutes she taught me how to get him to latch correctly and all of my problems were solved! 5 weeks and 3 days later I am actually enjoying breastfeeding and I am so happy that I got it figured out!
Another part of breastfeeding that I wasn’t expecting was when my milk came in. Oh. My. Gosh. It’s actually really funny looking back on it now but at the time I was freaking out! Basically your breasts fill with SO MUCH milk and it’s really painful and uncomfortable. I even had to pump a couple of times to relieve the pressure. Again I was concerned that this was going to last forever…but don’t worry it only lasts about a day. The conversation at Grey’s first pediatrician appointment was pretty entertaining…
Dr.: “Did your milk come in?”
(Note that the yes is bold, italicized and underlined…because that’s exactly how I said it)
Dr.: “Ya know, no one ever answers that question with a simple, yes it came in. It’s always a very intense YES!”
Those first few days are really tough. If you are struggling through them…don’t worry, you aren’t alone! A lot of people don’t talk about it because it all gets better and you honestly start forgetting how hard it was in the beginning. And if you didn’t struggle those first few days…kudos to you and tell me your secrets!
I am happy to say that I am back at my pre-pregnancy weight. This happened fairly quickly and I believe it was because of three things.
1. Genetics. I know that is so annoying to hear but honestly I think genetics play a big part!
2. Breastfeeding. We’ve all heard that breastfeeding burns extra calories and it really does! I can’t believe how hungry I’ve been this past month. And thirsty! I cannot get enough water.
3. I didn’t gain a lot to begin with. I gained 30 pounds total which is exactly what my doctor wanted. I didn’t work out at all and I didn’t eat super healthy…but I also never felt like I was eating for 2. I just kept eating my normal portion sizes and didn’t really worry too much about it. I never had the mentality of “I’m pregnant so I can eat as much as I want” and I think that really helped. I honestly didn’t even think about it…I just ate when I was hungry and pretty much ate what I wanted to.
With that being said, my post pregnancy body is definitely different. I guess the best word I can use to describe it is “softer”. Kane says I look more like a woman but I don’t know what that means…is that good? Or bad? He says it’s good. Anyways, I will for sure be starting a workout plan soon because I need to tone up!
The skin on my face is super dry! I’ve always had really oily skin so this is definitely different for me. I can’t decide what I would prefer…dry or oily.
My nails feel a little bit more brittle. I’ve always had really strong and healthy nails so I’m hoping this doesn’t last.
I have under eye circles for the first time in my life. Now I understand what concealer is for! Ha
My back hurts. You think once you’ve lost the belly your back will feel better…but you just replace the belly with a baby!
The past 5 weeks have been quite the journey! I haven’t slept for more than 3 hours straight, my house might not be clean and showers are on the back burner…but I have one happy baby and that makes me a happy momma!
I love that little boy so much more than I ever thought I could! It’s so true what they say about children being a part of your heart on the outside of your body. I can’t imagine what my life was like before Grey…and I don’t want to. I would go through those first few days a thousand times again for my little boy!!
Am I forgetting anything?
Am I forgetting anything?
What do you remember from your first month with baby?